Today my mother said she was "getting into a swoop", but she meant to say she was "getting into a slump" I laughed
My mother also looked at me while we were having one of our frequent and funny arguements, she put her hands together and formed them into that typical W-shape meaning "whatever" and placed them on her forehead. "Ummm, Mom, that is what you do for the L-shape, not the W-shape...."
Today I also brought an old guitar into a music shop to get it re-strung and tuned cause I am going to learn how to play and probably become famous...
And, today I am hoping that someone calls me to give me a job, or at least an interview, so phone, go ahead and ring!
4.09.2008
4.06.2008
Passion
Passion is a word that I love to be associated with. I think I've always wanted to live a life of passion and when asked I would never stray from that desire, but right now I'm feel a little less than passionate. Today my pastor spoke about Passion, about living big, and I loved it.
Life is meant to be lived you know?! And because right now everything is up in the air I have found myself feeling much more comfortable hiding away under the covers, it's safe there, miserable, but safe.
I've been struggling, feeling a bit depressed, afraid, unavailable, and chaotic in the doldrums of my life, the thoughts in my head.
The message was about David from the Bible. I like hearing about David because I relate to him. He lived his life with passion, he was emotional, he loved, hated, experienced joy unthinkable, sorrow unknown, and yet, he was a man after God's own heart. The last part of this is music to my ears because I think God enjoyed his passion. I'd like to believe that God enjoys mine as well.
Today I am making that choice again, and may have to make it tomorrow and the next day as well to pick myself up, face the world, and not let the chaos and unknown paralyze me. It may not look like I think it should, but this is life, another day of the adventure, and it hit me today that this may actually be a bigger challenge than Zambia. This may be the place now where Faith and Trust are necessary to face the day and believe that God is still good, he is still present, and He has a plan for all of this.
Strange how everything flips around when we aren't watching. and now I am in an old and unfamiliar land that I have never been before, and God is asking me to trust him....
Life is meant to be lived you know?! And because right now everything is up in the air I have found myself feeling much more comfortable hiding away under the covers, it's safe there, miserable, but safe.
I've been struggling, feeling a bit depressed, afraid, unavailable, and chaotic in the doldrums of my life, the thoughts in my head.
The message was about David from the Bible. I like hearing about David because I relate to him. He lived his life with passion, he was emotional, he loved, hated, experienced joy unthinkable, sorrow unknown, and yet, he was a man after God's own heart. The last part of this is music to my ears because I think God enjoyed his passion. I'd like to believe that God enjoys mine as well.
Today I am making that choice again, and may have to make it tomorrow and the next day as well to pick myself up, face the world, and not let the chaos and unknown paralyze me. It may not look like I think it should, but this is life, another day of the adventure, and it hit me today that this may actually be a bigger challenge than Zambia. This may be the place now where Faith and Trust are necessary to face the day and believe that God is still good, he is still present, and He has a plan for all of this.
Strange how everything flips around when we aren't watching. and now I am in an old and unfamiliar land that I have never been before, and God is asking me to trust him....
4.03.2008
News Flash
I and my mother just wanted you all to know that my mother is aging very quickly...at an abnormally fast rate
Please be alarmed
She is looking so old that she may say she has serious memory loss
She is looking so old that many still ask if she is my sister
She is looking so old that men will turn their heads to stare as she walks by
She is looking so old that in Zambia they called me FAT in comparison to her and shook their heads at me
There are many other reasons why she is aging very quickly: she always tells people she IS the age she will turn the next year, there is also this thing where she doesn't look like she is 25 which means she is REALLY old...
So please, anyone who knows my mother, please have compassion on her in her old and frail age and do your best to just support and encourage her. Actually, maybe I am the one who needs the support...yeah, I think that might be the best in this current situation we are in. Support me, okay? Because I am having to take care of her in her senility, and it's getting pretty rough...
Please be alarmed
She is looking so old that she may say she has serious memory loss
She is looking so old that many still ask if she is my sister
She is looking so old that men will turn their heads to stare as she walks by
She is looking so old that in Zambia they called me FAT in comparison to her and shook their heads at me
There are many other reasons why she is aging very quickly: she always tells people she IS the age she will turn the next year, there is also this thing where she doesn't look like she is 25 which means she is REALLY old...
So please, anyone who knows my mother, please have compassion on her in her old and frail age and do your best to just support and encourage her. Actually, maybe I am the one who needs the support...yeah, I think that might be the best in this current situation we are in. Support me, okay? Because I am having to take care of her in her senility, and it's getting pretty rough...
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